Here i am..

WoW.. its been awhile i didn't signin my blog.. so many things happen.. wish i can say it all..
i will tell when the rite time.. i missed someone once i closed with.. without any news, msg, email and call.. idk where did she go.. but i know and believe she safe.. she mean a lot to me.. i wish she read this blog and send me a msg.. tell the truth, i miss her.. even thou she only in my life just for awhile, she bring some impact to me.. it worth i know her then i didn't know her at all.. she so special to me.. she have a tough heart.. she very different from any girl i meet.. no wonder so many guys fall to her.. i hope she meet someone who really appreciate her and care about her.. i know and im not deserved someone like her.. who me to compare with her.. im not a good and great guy for her.. she deserve someone who better than me.. i dont know abt the readers what u think abt me.. yahh.. i shout out how my feeling.. i cant keep my feeling.. i need to let things out.. such a burden to carry any feeling.. so full inside me.. anyway, rite now i focus finish my studies in Degree.. i cant believe that i went to the university.. ok.. thats all.. anything else, i let u know later.. To someone i know and i miss.. please take care urself.. i hope and pray u owez happy and healthy.. God Bless u always..

WTF!!!!

whuahauha..
u gonna watch till the end..
so damn funny..
lol
(^o^)

Funny~~~ lol...

watch this amazing cats...
the last one is the funniest..
wahuahauhaha..
lol...

whoaaa.. tears pouring my heart..

misery business.. hell yeahh..

Ure Not Alone..

SOMEWHERE OUT THERE

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight
Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there
And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky
Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true
And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky
Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

How Wonderful Life Would Be..

Oh Dear How Wonderful Life Would Be
With You Still In My Heart
Oh Dear How Wonderful Life Would Be
With You Still In My Dreams

Only Stars In The Sky
Who Will Understand My Tears
Let The Time Pass Me By
I Am Lonely As Can Be
Lonely Raven In The Sky
Who Will Understand My Fears
It Is Just You And I
My Aching Despain

p/s:

Life Is Like A Box Of Chocolates. Each Chocolates Is Like A Portion Of Life. Some Are Crunchy, Some Are Nutty, Some Are Sweet, Some Are Chewy But All Are Delicious In Their Own Way. Without Each One, Life Would Not Be Complete.

Bla Bla Bla..

Adehhhh... my feeling so mixed up with jealous n sad n so on.. sighh.. so sad enuff.. u still not telling me about ur true feeling.. wish i can read ur mind n ur heart.. what going on with u.. cant u tell me the truth.. what the meaning of love to u? u so confusing with ur own heart.. i also become so confused.. yesterday u say love, today u say dont know.. are u just playing with my heart then.. atleast say something.. what a weird feeling.. ok.. done with that..

tomolo my frens gets married.. huhu.. i cant go.. sorry bro.. wish i can come.. Congrats to u anyway.. u saying i know that girl.. i wondering whom.. shit.. just tell me bro.. u owez playing something like this to me.. lol.. GOOD LUCK TO U MY FRENS.. Hope u be happy forever..
hahaha.. there u go, i lost my good partner.. huhuhu.. i gonna missed my old day with u bro.. getting drunk, accident, fight n all other stuff we both do before.. i missed my day in kuching, sibu, bintulu n miri with u bro.. whuaaa whuaaa.. but i happy for u bro.. finally u found ur love one.. haha.. best of luck..

whatelse.. my life gettin better lately, seem all thing gets into shape.. only that thing still bugging me coz i still dont know her true feeling.. well, i gonna keep my blog this time.. kinda fun to do after all.. sharing what i been through n what happen to me.. maybe someday, this blog will remind of me how my life going on.. hahaha.. actually, i kinda hate this thing before but somehow, it change my mind.. guess i found how interesting is blogging.. hahaha.. hope found more frens in here while blogging.. ahaks.. ttyl.. see ya..

I hate you so much...

Im trying not to hate you but i cant..
Even thou ure saying sorry so many time, but i still cant forgive u what u have done to me.. sighh..
this feeling really sucks.. im trying to be nice but i cant..
i cant faking that im ok with u.. stop all this nonsense..
u really hurting me..
how i supposed to forgive u.. to me, it all over.. just dont appear in my life anymore..
i hate u so much.. but i feel bad for what happened to u..
just live for ur own sake n look forward.. u have ur own life now..
i cant help u anyway..
i already gave u so many chance before but u really spoils it.
u dont know how to appreciate the people around u who love u..
when u lost it, u cant so easily get it back..
it just like a field full with flower..
u looking n searching for the most beautiful flower ever without turning back..
u found one but u think maybe a lot beautiful than this..
but in the end, u reach at the end of the field..
nothing in ur hand but u cant turn back to look it again..
this is life..
same as ur love one..
if u dont know how to appreciate it, u will losing it..
the chance come once in a life time..
u will know who the most care n love u..
Appreciate it n take good care of it..
pay attention to someone u love..
Do CARE other feeling..
LOVE is not just a word..
It really come from sincerely heart..
Im done with all this feeling..

Three Words For You..

1-2-1-2-3-4
Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
1-2-3-4
I love you
(I love you) I love you

Awesome Wedding Day..

What the tuuuuttt!!!

It's amazing, I'm the reason
Everybody fired up this evening
I'm exhausted, barely breathing
Holding on to what I believe in

No matter what you'll never take that from me
My reign is as far as your eyes can see

It's amazin', so amazin', so amazin', so amazin'
It's amazin', so amazin', so amazin', so amazin'
It's amazin'
(Let's go)

I'm a monster, I'm a killer
I know I'm wrong, yeah
I'm a problem that'll never ever be solved

And no matter what you'll never take that from me
My reign is as far as your eyes can see

It's amazin', so amazin', so amazin', so amazin'
It's amazin', so amazin', so amazin', so amazin'
It's amazin'
(Let's go)

I'm a monster, I'm a maven
I know this world is changin'
Never gave in, never gave up
I'm the only thing I'm afraid of

No matter what you'll never take that from me
My reign is as far as your eyes can see

It's amazin', so amazin', so amazin', so amazin'
It's amazin', so amazin', so amazin', so amazin'
It's amazin', so amazin', so amazin', so amazin'
It's amazin', so amazin', so amazin', so amazin'
It's amazin'

I'm amazin', yeah, I'm all that
If I ain't on my grind then what you call that?
Victorious, yeah, we warriors
We make history, strive off victory

Standing at my podium
I'm trying watch my sodium
Die high blood pressure
You even let the Feds getcha

I'm amazin', born on the full moon
I was bred to get it in, no spoon
That's why I'm so goose, summer time, no juice
Big family, small house, no rooms

They like, oh God, why you go so hard?
Look what he's been through
He deserves an applause

So amazin', so amazin', so amazin'
It's amazin', so amazin', so amazin', so amazin'
It's amazin', so amazin', so amazin', so amazin'
It's amazin', so amazin', so amazin', so amazin'
It's amazin'

I'm Sorry.. I'm Addicted..

ADDICTION
Because Of You

[Verse 1]
Want to but I can't help it.
I love the way it feels.
This got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real.
I need it when I want it.
I want it when I don't.
Tell myself I'd stop everyday,
Knowing that I won't


[Hook #1]
I've got a problem and I.. (don't know what to do about it)
Even if I did, I don't know if i would quit
But I doubt it. I'm,
Taken by the thought of it..(mmm mm)

And I know this much is true (mmmmm)
Baby, you have become my addiction.
I'm so strung out on you (mmmm)
I can barely move...but I like it,

[Chorus]
So, then it's all because of you (all because of you)
So, then it's all because of you (all because of you)
And it's all because of you (all because of you)
So, then it's all because...
Never get enough,
She's the sweetest drug. (Oowuuu)

[Verse 2]

Think of it every second,
I can't get nothing done.
Only concern is the next time, I'm 'gon get me some.
Know I should stay away from,
Cause it's no good for me.
I try and try but my obsession, won't let me leave.

[Hook #1]
I've got a problem and I (don't know what to do about it)
Even if I did I don't know if i would quit
But I doubt it. I'm,


Taken by the thought of it. (mmmm) (heeyh..)

And I know this much is true, (mmmm)
Baby, you have become my addiction.
I'm so strung out on you, (strung out on you..)
I can barely move...but I like it, (but I like it..)

[Chorus]
So, then it's all because of you (all because of you) (aey!)
So, then it's all because of you (all because of you)
And it's all because of you (all because of you)
So, then it's all because...
Never get enough (Never get enough..)
She's the sweetest drug.

[Hook #2]
Ain't no doubt.... (no doubt heayh)
So strung out. (Strung out heeayh)
Ain't no doubt....
So strung out. (heahheh!)
Over you,
Over you,(yooouuu)
Over you(yooouuu)...

[Harmonics]
(Mmouhh)

(Because of you)
(And it's all because of you)
(mm)
(Never get enough)
(She's the sweetest drug)

And I know this much is true (Truuuuue)
Baby, you (baby yoou you you you) have become my addiction (become my addiction)
I'm so strung out on you,
I can barely move...but I like it (and I like it..yeaheh..)

[Chorus]
So, then it's all because of you (aey!)(all because of you)
So, then it's all because of you (all because of you)
And it's all because of you (all because of you)
So, then it's all because...
Never get enough (Oooh never get enough)
She's the sweetest drug,
.....She's the sweetest drug.....

Damn Crazy Week..

Condolence to frens of mine. She lost her beloved father on Wednesday afternoon. Rest In Peace. This week, my day became so crazy with sadness n weird n sickness.. Today, im really sick. arghh, barely cant move.. i just stay at my room n i feel so bad.. My whole body is in pain.. My heart is the worst pain in me.. Last night i cant sleep till this morning.. worried too much.. while i typing this, my head spinning over like gasing huh.. after i finish with this, i go back to my bed lol.. not in the mood to eat.. i lost my appetite.. geez.. i worried so much.. keep thinking of that person.. gtg now.. i feel really sick..

Take Me To Place With No Name

Yup.. that what im saying.. take me to place with no name.. my life kinda suck.. full of tense.. i wanna rest my soul n my brain for the rest of my life.. i wanna go to place that no one know me, no one can find me and it very far from city. As long i cant be found.. I bet no one will look for me.. hahaha.. 1st of all, i must get some money.. after that, i be gone and i wont come back if i found a place that give me peacefull mind.. maybe i will stay there n work there.. i dont care what work i will do as long im happy.. i looking for my own paradise.. about the other thing, i will think about it after i got a lot sum of money.. starting now, i gonna save my money.. im not gonna spend for something useless anymore.. hahaha..

It's all about the negative and positive..

What the hell im talkin about.. This blog gettin more serious matter.. Geez.. What i doing here again.. Forgot my main reason actually.. Well, this is me after all.. I read all my post and what a such an idiots.. This is kinda suck.. So lame.. Wish i dont know how to do this blog.. actually i got plenty of blog but i dont remember my id and my blog name.. i didnt save it b4 this.. maybe have been delete.. unlike this blog, i keep it and save it.. after all, i used this mail n i can remember it.. Now i dont care with everything i have except one things.. im so tired lol.. im gettin tension everyday.. none of it make me happy except one thing.. Well, i gettin used of it.. so, i just keep think positive and live on.. negative is all the time but negative plus negative it become positive.. what the hell.. i will continue this blog after all.. i dont care what the hell u all are saying.. go to hell.. ahaks.. peace...

Doing Like This And Like That..

Nothing to do after all. Just upgrade my blog.. Much better with the new look.. I just doing nothing.. Im not sign in my YM, MSN and SKYPE.. I need to do something that chased away my feeling.. Busying my self with some crazy stuff.. Now im happy when doing something that make my dad mad at me.. Atleast i wont think that make me sad.. Today i smash all my empty bottle of liquor.. Kinda fun to do.. LOL.. Im not doing at my place.. I doing it at somewhere else.. If i told u all, none of u will belived it.. Its called Tanah Perkuburan.. haha.. im bad after all.. do i care?, i dont care at all.. im crazy enuff today.. if the ghost wanna hunt me, hunt la.. let see who the crazies.. human or ghost.. blah la ko hantu.. do u think im scared, come n get me.. that what i shouted b4 im leaving.. if the ghost really hunt me, i be laughing at myself.. LOL.. haha..

Kepura-puraan..

Aku dalam kepura-puraan kah? Im saying im happy but deep inside me says otherwise. How come i feel so sad. I really dont know but im really sad. So sad. Arghhhhhhh... Tensionnya.. What is going on with me. I do feel mad, angry, frustrated and sad deeply inside me. Aku x tahan lg. Aku ingin luahkan semuanya. Kau.................... Aku x faham. Aku keliru. Aku nak tahu kebenaran. Aku macam orang bodoh. Sapa aku sebenarnya. Apa sebenarnya berlaku sejak dari mula lagi. Aku hanya persinggahan. Aku nak tahu keadaan sebenar. What the meaning of all this.

Menghancurkan diri aku..

I'm listening to this song. Its so meaningful to me. Its really describe who i am. How my feel and my soul. It really make me think how my life and expressed my self. Pertama kali ku mendengar lagu tuh, ya seolah2 menceritakan tentang aku sejak dr rangkap pertama sehingga ke rangkap terakhir. Seolah2 lagu tu tercipta untuk aku. Aku ulang lagu tuh sampai aku puas hati. Haha.. Aku cuma mengapai bintang yg jauh dr tangan aku. Hempasan ombak membuai pancaindera pendengaran aku. Mata ku di kaburi kepura-puraan. Nafas ku sesak seolah di altitud tinggi. Yang mana palsu dan yang mana benar. Kekeliruan merasuk jiwa ku lagi. Ingin ku luahkan, tp aku x berdaya. Seolah2 anak tekak ku hancur dimamah asid. Hati ku rapuh seperti kaca nipis. Kenyataan dan kepuraan di mata ku dan di hati ku menghancurkan diri aku. Kepahitan dan kemanisan dah x terasa di lidah ku. Ingin ku tutup mata ku. Ingin ku behenti berjalan. Tanpa menyesal aku bernafas. Hidup penuh kepura-puraan. So tired. So tired enuff till i cant breath. No answer n no question n no debate. Alangkah indahnya hidup sekiranya masalah dapat diselesaikan seperti mana lukisan manga, Cuma perlukan 2 petak lukisan, lukiskan 1 petak msalah dan 1 petak penyelesaian. Alangkah indah sekiranya hidup semudah itu.

Important thing..

I have been thinking about people around me, my life and how it goes. Tell the truth. Now i'm just realize how important is to appreciate my day, my life and people around me. Even thou my life suck sometime and really miserable due to my style of living. Lately it become more clear, it opened my eyes and change my perception for another point of view. It's doesn't matter how bad or good you are, how rich or poor you are, employed or unemployed you are and what kind of life style you really into. What did i mention just now, doesn't mean you can hangout around and don't care what happen around you. It does matter and we got to know. I tell you why and what i know from my point of view.

Ask yourself What is happening around you and do you care what is happening around you? Are you happy with it? This question related to yourself and how we appreciate what happening around us. I'm asking myself this question and think about it and look for the answer. After a while, i realize what i been missing in me. It's enjoyment and appreciate what happening in my life. It's doesn't matter if my life is happy or miserable, as long i'm happy with myself and appreciate every moment of my life is. This is what supposed i do.

This is Life. It's full of happiness and sadness, it depend how we take good care of our life. The most important thing is appreciate people around us especially the loved one and the family.Do always make priority for someone who we really care of. If you got a lot of work, lay back a lil bit and spend time with them even for a while. Make sure you know how to divide your time with your loved one. Sometime, when we lost someone, then we realize how important that person to us. So, do appreciate people around you.

Even thou bad things happen, we must accept what happen and follow the flow of our life. Look forward and walk with your head up. We can't change what did happen and we must live with what we got. If bad things happen, good thing will come with it too. God knows what good and bad for us. But the choice of our life still in our hand. The end of it, we must appreciate of our life and it's doesn't matter how your life is going on. Be happy and thankful for what you got. Keep the faith. Don't regret what you have done or your decision you take. Sometime, how hard you path is, there always be better life and the good thing is we learn something. Just keep walk till the end. There always be a sunshine after the rain. The important thing is, be yourself, appreciate and enjoy every moment of your life till the end of your life. Says love to your loved one today because tomorrow we never know if we alive to breath.