I will waits for her..

Its been a while we both not contact each other. I miss her so much. So sad knowing her somewhere i couldn't go. She told me earlier about this. We both cant contact each other. Luckly im know where she is and what she been doing. Im just worried but i trust her.Just like what she said to me, sad and cry wasn't bring us anywhere. If we are meant to be together, we will meet again someday. Im just keep waits for that day. We both knows, this relationship will having such a pain. Wondering when we both will be together. Im just be happy and trust and have faith in her. She know better than me. Everyday i faced my day with her in my mind n my heart. I lost interest doing something i loved most to do ONLINE. Wish i were there with her. I love them both. Just like i told her, im sending her mail everyday. Report of my day at her. I miss her voice, her laugh, her cry, her smile , her anger and everything about her. Her dad, om ghost, so scared at him. Geez, compare to my dad. Both of them maybe got same attitude. Everyday with hot n spicy word. Just like what she said bising orang tua tok, sumbat mulut ya dengan roti baru diam. I miss her when she mad at someone. I do feel kinda funny with her and she make me laugh. Each time i remember she mad at my dad. Im laughing alone just like crazy person. The most im missing doing together with her is we both sing a song together. There are one song she gave to me, i cant stop laughing each time im listen to this song. I wont tell any of u. Its so funny enough. I dont know if she still remember that song. Hahaha.. I deeply in love with her. I will wait for her to come back to me. Better for me to go to sleep. gtg. sayonara..

Kerinduan..

Arghhh.. rindu nya aku kat dia.. only god knows how i feel.. sedih sgt.. aku sgt2 rindu kat dia.. huhuhu.. marah kat aku kah.. aku betul2 sayangkan dia.. kenapa dirimu tiba2 tanpa berita.. tell me... God help me... Plzzzzzzzz......... seharian aku terkenangan dia,, aku bimbangkan dia.. aku menunggu dia.. aku tak tahan dengan perasaan aku ini.. aku teringat kenangan ku bersama dia.. i need her so much.. hukhukhuk... where are u dear... sedih nya aku.. kerinduan tahap dewa pd mu.. i will wait for u.. i love u miss u so much dear.. please take care... muahhh..

Confession...

I don't know where to begin with. What the meaning of love. It's just a talk or a word or really have a meaning inside our heart. For me, when i says i love you. I really mean what i says. Love is not a joke to play around. Love came from deep our heart. I don't know what else i gonna to say. I wish i know what the meaning of love inside your heart. She said i'm so special deep inside her heart. I know she love me. I know she afraid to be in love again. I know she afraid gonna hurt me and herself. I know what she been thinking lately. I believed we both just too afraid to admit and talk about this. I'm so afraid i gonna lose her. I love her so much. I can't breathing without her. I been thinking about this. I know and very sure i'm not wrong falling in love with. This feeling came deep inside me. I missing her so much. Everyday i waits for her. I don't care what others say. I found happiness inside her .She is the best ever precious came to my life. Let say it a miracle that God send to me. She is not a bad girl. I mean it. I look through inside her heart. She paint my life with wonderful colour. Before this my heart so black, now slowly it change to other colours. Now i know how to thank to God for giving me a precious person ever. I can't losing her. Someday, i know we both will get through all this and we both will happily ever after. I can think one solution for all of this, let we both be brave and facing all the matters together. Lets start a new day without worrying and thinking to much. Now, we both become one. We both will get through all of this. I will not run away from you. That all i wanna to say. One more thing, for others out there. Don't judge others because of something that happen to you. Don't blame others. Got problem, face it and fixed it. It's all about how you manage and solve the problem.

Wonderful Night..

Thanx dear for giving me a wonderful night. I love you so much dear. Thanx to God because sending me a beautiful and cute angel. You are really a angel to me. Miss you so much dear. I'm so happy being with you. You are my sunshine. Let me be your last love in the whole world. I will be with you for the rest of my life. God bless us.

My Story..

This is the whole story.. The truth that you dont want to listen and know.. What did i told u before is true.. I already told you about this.. I will tell you once again.. I am not shame with this because i really do love you so much.. I not shame if others read this too.. What the best way is ask me.. Read this once again dear..

I been with this girl for 3 years.. Almost 4 years before i and her broke up.. She the one who want to break up with me.. She told me that she got pregnant with someone else.. she doesn't love me anymore and she love someone else. I'm very shock and very upset. At that time, i in kuching and she in miri. For the past 3 years, i been loyalty with her. You know how it feels, rite. Well, you know the rest of my story. Then i wrote a letter to her but i never print it out and sent to her. Slowly i get over with it. I throw away all the stuff that she gave to me including her pic. I never keep it. The letter that u read is already a past. Something that i already let it go. All what written in that letter is just a emosional sadness. For your info, ever since that day she call me to break up. I never msg or call her. It take time for me to recover from that pain. Slowly it heals. After that, i'm afraid to be in love again. I'm not interested in relationship after that. Been a single guy 4,5 month after the broke up. Then, i meet you dear. You make me fall in love again. This time, i'm not make a mistake to falling in love with. I'm deeply falling in love with you. I'm accept who you are. I'm being me, who love you more than everyone else and more than my own life. I'm not blaming you for the all misunderstanding between us. It because of me. My own fault. I keep telling you that it was my fault. I'm so sorry dear. It's my own stupidity because wrote that letter. I'm not afraid being honest with you. I don't have any secret or hide something from you. I told everything what i know to you. All i did because ii really do love you so much and i want you to know how deep my love towards you. You are so precious and special to me. I hope what i'm wrote in here will make you trust and never doubt my love towards you. I'm not shame let others read and know what in my mind and my heart and how i feel towards you. If i could, i let the whole world know how much i love you and my heart, my life, my love belong to you. I'm so sorry dear. Please forgive me. I always think of you and love you so much. Missing you so badly. :((