Doing Like This And Like That..

Nothing to do after all. Just upgrade my blog.. Much better with the new look.. I just doing nothing.. Im not sign in my YM, MSN and SKYPE.. I need to do something that chased away my feeling.. Busying my self with some crazy stuff.. Now im happy when doing something that make my dad mad at me.. Atleast i wont think that make me sad.. Today i smash all my empty bottle of liquor.. Kinda fun to do.. LOL.. Im not doing at my place.. I doing it at somewhere else.. If i told u all, none of u will belived it.. Its called Tanah Perkuburan.. haha.. im bad after all.. do i care?, i dont care at all.. im crazy enuff today.. if the ghost wanna hunt me, hunt la.. let see who the crazies.. human or ghost.. blah la ko hantu.. do u think im scared, come n get me.. that what i shouted b4 im leaving.. if the ghost really hunt me, i be laughing at myself.. LOL.. haha..

Kepura-puraan..

Aku dalam kepura-puraan kah? Im saying im happy but deep inside me says otherwise. How come i feel so sad. I really dont know but im really sad. So sad. Arghhhhhhh... Tensionnya.. What is going on with me. I do feel mad, angry, frustrated and sad deeply inside me. Aku x tahan lg. Aku ingin luahkan semuanya. Kau.................... Aku x faham. Aku keliru. Aku nak tahu kebenaran. Aku macam orang bodoh. Sapa aku sebenarnya. Apa sebenarnya berlaku sejak dari mula lagi. Aku hanya persinggahan. Aku nak tahu keadaan sebenar. What the meaning of all this.

Menghancurkan diri aku..

I'm listening to this song. Its so meaningful to me. Its really describe who i am. How my feel and my soul. It really make me think how my life and expressed my self. Pertama kali ku mendengar lagu tuh, ya seolah2 menceritakan tentang aku sejak dr rangkap pertama sehingga ke rangkap terakhir. Seolah2 lagu tu tercipta untuk aku. Aku ulang lagu tuh sampai aku puas hati. Haha.. Aku cuma mengapai bintang yg jauh dr tangan aku. Hempasan ombak membuai pancaindera pendengaran aku. Mata ku di kaburi kepura-puraan. Nafas ku sesak seolah di altitud tinggi. Yang mana palsu dan yang mana benar. Kekeliruan merasuk jiwa ku lagi. Ingin ku luahkan, tp aku x berdaya. Seolah2 anak tekak ku hancur dimamah asid. Hati ku rapuh seperti kaca nipis. Kenyataan dan kepuraan di mata ku dan di hati ku menghancurkan diri aku. Kepahitan dan kemanisan dah x terasa di lidah ku. Ingin ku tutup mata ku. Ingin ku behenti berjalan. Tanpa menyesal aku bernafas. Hidup penuh kepura-puraan. So tired. So tired enuff till i cant breath. No answer n no question n no debate. Alangkah indahnya hidup sekiranya masalah dapat diselesaikan seperti mana lukisan manga, Cuma perlukan 2 petak lukisan, lukiskan 1 petak msalah dan 1 petak penyelesaian. Alangkah indah sekiranya hidup semudah itu.

Important thing..

I have been thinking about people around me, my life and how it goes. Tell the truth. Now i'm just realize how important is to appreciate my day, my life and people around me. Even thou my life suck sometime and really miserable due to my style of living. Lately it become more clear, it opened my eyes and change my perception for another point of view. It's doesn't matter how bad or good you are, how rich or poor you are, employed or unemployed you are and what kind of life style you really into. What did i mention just now, doesn't mean you can hangout around and don't care what happen around you. It does matter and we got to know. I tell you why and what i know from my point of view.

Ask yourself What is happening around you and do you care what is happening around you? Are you happy with it? This question related to yourself and how we appreciate what happening around us. I'm asking myself this question and think about it and look for the answer. After a while, i realize what i been missing in me. It's enjoyment and appreciate what happening in my life. It's doesn't matter if my life is happy or miserable, as long i'm happy with myself and appreciate every moment of my life is. This is what supposed i do.

This is Life. It's full of happiness and sadness, it depend how we take good care of our life. The most important thing is appreciate people around us especially the loved one and the family.Do always make priority for someone who we really care of. If you got a lot of work, lay back a lil bit and spend time with them even for a while. Make sure you know how to divide your time with your loved one. Sometime, when we lost someone, then we realize how important that person to us. So, do appreciate people around you.

Even thou bad things happen, we must accept what happen and follow the flow of our life. Look forward and walk with your head up. We can't change what did happen and we must live with what we got. If bad things happen, good thing will come with it too. God knows what good and bad for us. But the choice of our life still in our hand. The end of it, we must appreciate of our life and it's doesn't matter how your life is going on. Be happy and thankful for what you got. Keep the faith. Don't regret what you have done or your decision you take. Sometime, how hard you path is, there always be better life and the good thing is we learn something. Just keep walk till the end. There always be a sunshine after the rain. The important thing is, be yourself, appreciate and enjoy every moment of your life till the end of your life. Says love to your loved one today because tomorrow we never know if we alive to breath.

I will waits for her..

Its been a while we both not contact each other. I miss her so much. So sad knowing her somewhere i couldn't go. She told me earlier about this. We both cant contact each other. Luckly im know where she is and what she been doing. Im just worried but i trust her.Just like what she said to me, sad and cry wasn't bring us anywhere. If we are meant to be together, we will meet again someday. Im just keep waits for that day. We both knows, this relationship will having such a pain. Wondering when we both will be together. Im just be happy and trust and have faith in her. She know better than me. Everyday i faced my day with her in my mind n my heart. I lost interest doing something i loved most to do ONLINE. Wish i were there with her. I love them both. Just like i told her, im sending her mail everyday. Report of my day at her. I miss her voice, her laugh, her cry, her smile , her anger and everything about her. Her dad, om ghost, so scared at him. Geez, compare to my dad. Both of them maybe got same attitude. Everyday with hot n spicy word. Just like what she said bising orang tua tok, sumbat mulut ya dengan roti baru diam. I miss her when she mad at someone. I do feel kinda funny with her and she make me laugh. Each time i remember she mad at my dad. Im laughing alone just like crazy person. The most im missing doing together with her is we both sing a song together. There are one song she gave to me, i cant stop laughing each time im listen to this song. I wont tell any of u. Its so funny enough. I dont know if she still remember that song. Hahaha.. I deeply in love with her. I will wait for her to come back to me. Better for me to go to sleep. gtg. sayonara..

ABC anyone....

Petang tadi, aku singgah kat gerai ABC yang terletak kat Matang. Cuaca time tu panas.. So, banyak orang dalam kedai tu.. Penuh gak le.. Tp aku bernasib baik.. Tiba je aku kat sana, kebetulan ada customer yang abis makan n beredar.. aku cepat2 duduk.. sebelum sekumpulan bapok take over.. Muahahhahaha... Aku buat muka selamber je.. Peduli aper aku.. Tauke, jagung satu.. Tauke tu jawab, okeh.. Bapok 3 orang tu smacam tengok aku.. Rasa nak bagi penampar je.. Tak sempat aku amek gambar dorang td.. Lama gak le aku tngu td.. Maybe banyak customer kot.. Yang pastinya, bapok tu duk jauh dari aku.. Hahaha.. Yang tak best nyer, time ais jagung aku tu datang, terlupa plak aku amek gambar.. Cettt... Dah makan baru ingat nak amek gambar. Lagipun saje nak test amek gambar ;p....Apa-apa pun, aku puas makan ais jagung.. brubbb... so, pastu aku blah le.. wahahaha.. tu je.. tak best pun ceta aku nih.. saje nak post benda nih..

Kerinduan..

Arghhh.. rindu nya aku kat dia.. only god knows how i feel.. sedih sgt.. aku sgt2 rindu kat dia.. huhuhu.. marah kat aku kah.. aku betul2 sayangkan dia.. kenapa dirimu tiba2 tanpa berita.. tell me... God help me... Plzzzzzzzz......... seharian aku terkenangan dia,, aku bimbangkan dia.. aku menunggu dia.. aku tak tahan dengan perasaan aku ini.. aku teringat kenangan ku bersama dia.. i need her so much.. hukhukhuk... where are u dear... sedih nya aku.. kerinduan tahap dewa pd mu.. i will wait for u.. i love u miss u so much dear.. please take care... muahhh..