Sunday, June 21, 2009

Sunday..

Sunday, June 21, 2009 0
Warghh.. i woke up so late today.. around 10am.. sakit lorr kepala ku bgn lewat.. malas mau guna bhasa english.. aku seorg pengguna bhasa english yg teruk.. sigh.. apa kah.. ntah la.. aku rasa sungguh bosan sgt.. nak guna internet, punya la payah.. nak beli wifi, bah bg duit kat aku.. aku mmg gi beli skrg gak.. tp apa bleh buat, bank negara aku tutup.. wahaha.. aku x paham la ttg diri aku sendiri.. adakah aku seorg pembohong dan penipu.. adakah aku suka menungkit.. kalau ada, maafkan aku la.. sbb nya aku x tahu dan aku x paham aku sendiri.. mungkin betul kata org lain, aku org yg xda pendirian yg tetap.. lagi satu, aku mmg la tersangat jujur ikhlas terhadap org sehingga aku kena tipu pun aku x sedar.. kalo sedar pun, aku buat2 x tau.. biar la org cakap yg bukan2 kat aku.. janji aku sendiri tau apa yg aku cakapkan tu betul.. pandangan org lain, mana la sama pandangna kita.. org angguk pun belum tentu stuju apa yg kita ckapkan.. ntah2 dlm hati katakan tak stuju.. dah puas dah aku dijadikan kambing hitam, smua kesalahan org diletakkan diatas bahu aku.. aku dah penat melawan smua tu.. aku just tutup mulut n membebal dalam hati aku sendiri.. kalo aku sedih, bukan ada kwn nak dgr smua ceta aku.. yg pelik nya, kalo kwn aku sedih n down, comfirm cari aku.. call aku, ajak aku kuar.. dgr smua ceta msalah dorang.. aku bukan merungut cuma aku x paham, betul ke aku kawan korang.. time sedih baru nak jumpa aku, time korang happy, x nampak batang hidung pun.. time aku call n ajak korang kuar, fuiyohhh, nak meletup hp aku call.. asyik dgr kringgg yg x terjawab.. heran gak aku.. patut ke aku berkawan dgn org mcm tu.. lagi bhaya ada kawan yg tikam aku dr belakang.. aku mmg la marah tp nak buat mcm mana, benda dah berlaku.. yg betul2 kawan aku, ada la beberapa org.. tp dorang dah ada tanggungjawab masing2.. so, aku x nak la kacau.. manusia yg berpura2 mmg banyak sgt heh.. aku x tau nak mengadu kat sapa lg.. apa yg aku bleh buat, luahkan kat blog.. perkara yg aku x suka bleh jadi suka.. hehehe.. penat lorr.. doin the same thing everyday.. kalau bleh, aku nak merantau n berjalan sehingga aku penat dan behenti sampai aku rasa dah buat yg termampu.. lari2 ke arah yg aku x tau.. kat hati aku nih, mcm2 yg ada.. nak memahami diri aku mmg susah.. slalu bertanya kepda diri aku.. mcm org gila sudah bercakap sendiri dlm hati.. bila tgk org happy, gelak, senyum.. aku harapkan mcm tu gak.. happy, gelak,senyum.. tp aku x mcm tu.. ntah la.. dunia aku semakin malap kot.. x mampu aku katakan lg.. bila aku betul2 happy, aku pun dah x ingat.. bila aku happy, pastu gerenti x happy lg.. kejap je aku happy.. kalau aku tdo, aku harap aku x jumpa hari esok.. sbb esok hari xda maknanya.. aku masih mencari makna hidup aku sendiri.. ntah bila aku nak jumpa.. aku dah jumpa salah satu tujuan aku tp ntah la.. sbb tuhan slalu permainkan aku.. last2, hilang jua tujuan aku tu.. penat dah aku.. aku x tau nak lakukan apa lg.. aku cuma berharap tujuan aku tersebut xkan hilang dr aku.. apa2 pun, aku kan teruskan blog nih walaupun aku rasakan nak delete blog nih.. tengok la sampai kemana arah hidup aku bleh pegi.. manusia mmg lemah.. kalau ada yg kuat, good for u.. gtg.. bye.. to be continued..

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Saturday..

Saturday, June 20, 2009 0

What i been doin heh... doin some crazy stuff with my sis.. taking stupid picture of me.. and sending to her.. geez.. what im doin to my self.. goin out, nahh, not in my mind.. today just doin nothin but chatting only.. gtg.. not so much i wanna wrote.. such a boring n sleepy day.. whatever..

Friday, June 19, 2009

Stupid Phone Call..

Friday, June 19, 2009 0
This morning around 5am. I got this phone call. Shit damn it that women. She disturbing my dream. A nice and sweet dream with my love one. So stupid that women. I'm so so angry. Arghhh.. If my love one call me, i won't be mad like this. Let me tell you why i'm so angry.

Kringggg.. Kringggg...

Andy : Hellooo..

Stupid Women: Hellooo..

Andy : Yaa..

Stupid Women : Cam ada??

Andy : Haaa?? Cam?? Sapa Cam??

Stupid Women : Camillia..

Andy : Wrong Number.. Salah number tok..

Stupid Women : .......... tuttttttt...

Andy : Damn you, stupid you...

That women just hung up like that.. At least says sorry. I woke up early just to pick up that phone call.. Really pissed me off.. At that time, i'm having a nice dream.. sighh.. Bodoh betul..

BaD MooD!!!!!



Suddenly i'm not in mood. Don't know la.. what the hell..

feel wanna eat someone..

bite someone heh..

Thursday, June 18, 2009

I'm Sick..

Thursday, June 18, 2009 0
I'm sick of everything.. Hate living in this house.. Hope my dad buy a new one.. I'm not moving and live with them anymore.. Better for me live alone than everyday been lecture.. My ear turn to deaf if this continues.. I'm sick with all this.. Faking i'm happy.. I tried my best to solve this problem but it never end.. The best way is moving away from them or them moving away from me.. He said wanna build a house near beach.. Then, go ahead.. No objection from me.. Better away than near me.. If this won't happen, fine, i look for my self.. If i could, far away enough.. Don't be so dependable towards me.. I sick doing everything he says.. It still not right in his eye.. Let others do that thing for you.. I just want to be happy with her.. Nothing more important than she being with me.. One day, i will be gone.. So, at that time, dont miss me.. Someday, i hope you stop doing this to me.. I'm your son after all.. And you are my dad..

Confession...

I don't know where to begin with. What the meaning of love. It's just a talk or a word or really have a meaning inside our heart. For me, when i says i love you. I really mean what i says. Love is not a joke to play around. Love came from deep our heart. I don't know what else i gonna to say. I wish i know what the meaning of love inside your heart. She said i'm so special deep inside her heart. I know she love me. I know she afraid to be in love again. I know she afraid gonna hurt me and herself. I know what she been thinking lately. I believed we both just too afraid to admit and talk about this. I'm so afraid i gonna lose her. I love her so much. I can't breathing without her. I been thinking about this. I know and very sure i'm not wrong falling in love with. This feeling came deep inside me. I missing her so much. Everyday i waits for her. I don't care what others say. I found happiness inside her .She is the best ever precious came to my life. Let say it a miracle that God send to me. She is not a bad girl. I mean it. I look through inside her heart. She paint my life with wonderful colour. Before this my heart so black, now slowly it change to other colours. Now i know how to thank to God for giving me a precious person ever. I can't losing her. Someday, i know we both will get through all this and we both will happily ever after. I can think one solution for all of this, let we both be brave and facing all the matters together. Lets start a new day without worrying and thinking to much. Now, we both become one. We both will get through all of this. I will not run away from you. That all i wanna to say. One more thing, for others out there. Don't judge others because of something that happen to you. Don't blame others. Got problem, face it and fixed it. It's all about how you manage and solve the problem.

Wonderful Night..

Thanx dear for giving me a wonderful night. I love you so much dear. Thanx to God because sending me a beautiful and cute angel. You are really a angel to me. Miss you so much dear. I'm so happy being with you. You are my sunshine. Let me be your last love in the whole world. I will be with you for the rest of my life. God bless us.